thanks for all the support guys. i am starting to feel better today, not great but making progress. I went and talked to a lawyer today and I know now the only way to make anything better is to go after full custody. I also moved all of the x girlfriends shit out to my garage, and in the process found 3 different spots where she had been crushing up pills and snorting them. basically found a razor blade a tooter and white powder around it in three different places. makes me sick. i had an idea she was doing drugs but not like this. i am pretty nieve when it comes to that stuff. even though i found that stuff the lawyer said there is no real proof its hers. my worst fear is i will not win custody. will keep you updated as things progress. the lawyer is filing papers tomorrow to get things started.
The thing about he said she said in divorce/custody proceedings is that it is a civil matter and that means that it is based upon tge preponderance of evidence (50.1% is all you need) as opposed to criminal proceedings that require beyond a reasonable doubt (100%)