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So, on my eighth month since Stage 4 Brain Cancer surgery...and I'm actually ok finally talking about it.. I'm sure most members don't know or remember..in 2014 I had Stage 1A lung cancer..which was the earliest possible stage so I had the surgery and moved on back to regular life...BUT and god only knows when, a red cell went from the lung to the brain.
I remember in January I started a thread about the strange ass shit my body was doing...well not very long after stating that..I ended up in the emergency room on a Sunday because I knew I wouldn't make it in to work on Monday (as that Friday at work I had to lay on a couch in a back office and that same Friday I had an appt. to see my regular Dr. and he had me do a few things and said..get a brain MRI asap and we made an appt for the brain MRI on the up coming Wed but..... ) shit hit the fan.
Something else that made me know shit was wrong was one day at work, I answered the phone and it was a sub I have talked to a million times over the years..when I put him on hold...went to tell my boss he was on the phone..I totally forgot his name..that's when I started to realize my memory was an issue.
Once at emergency, after discussing shit they knew brain MRI was # 1 thing to do and there you go...brain tumor and was set up for removal...didn't have to ask me twice because as far as I'm concerned....get the shit out of my body and lets move on! I didn't stress or cry..just handled business...it's the only way I know how to be...have been my whole life...it's a blessing for sure!
So, the day after and still today I'm dealing with the following things until the brain decides to get over what happened...
1. Def in my right ear
2. Issues with my right eye (was seeing double but not anymore but it's not completely back to normal)
3. I have to be careful walking and driving with my eyes (looking side to side can be an issue..just have to do it pretty slow) I can't drive on the freeway at night
4. Tingling through my left side head and face
5. Not full taste back
6. Not full smell back
7. My legs and feet have been the extreme issue I have been dealing with and I can not even walk completely normal yet (I would assume some folks might think I'm drunk)
8. I went from 136 lbs down to 118 lbs when shit was bad and now 125 lbs holding
This is my life at the moment...and I'm just happy as fuuuck to be alive as I'm not ready to go...however long I have to deal with this stuff, I'll take it.
I'm extremely lucky to have a beautiful family and small cell of friends for support, not to mention a great job that I just started back at last week...I've been so lucky they have treated me like family...
If you want to live, you'll do whatever it takes to make it happen...and I'll tell you one thing...I don't have time for anything but living and enjoying life..all the bullshit I used to stress about, it doesn't exist anymore..live life as if everyday could be the last!!
I remember in January I started a thread about the strange ass shit my body was doing...well not very long after stating that..I ended up in the emergency room on a Sunday because I knew I wouldn't make it in to work on Monday (as that Friday at work I had to lay on a couch in a back office and that same Friday I had an appt. to see my regular Dr. and he had me do a few things and said..get a brain MRI asap and we made an appt for the brain MRI on the up coming Wed but..... ) shit hit the fan.
Something else that made me know shit was wrong was one day at work, I answered the phone and it was a sub I have talked to a million times over the years..when I put him on hold...went to tell my boss he was on the phone..I totally forgot his name..that's when I started to realize my memory was an issue.
Once at emergency, after discussing shit they knew brain MRI was # 1 thing to do and there you go...brain tumor and was set up for removal...didn't have to ask me twice because as far as I'm concerned....get the shit out of my body and lets move on! I didn't stress or cry..just handled business...it's the only way I know how to be...have been my whole life...it's a blessing for sure!
So, the day after and still today I'm dealing with the following things until the brain decides to get over what happened...
1. Def in my right ear
2. Issues with my right eye (was seeing double but not anymore but it's not completely back to normal)
3. I have to be careful walking and driving with my eyes (looking side to side can be an issue..just have to do it pretty slow) I can't drive on the freeway at night
4. Tingling through my left side head and face
5. Not full taste back
6. Not full smell back
7. My legs and feet have been the extreme issue I have been dealing with and I can not even walk completely normal yet (I would assume some folks might think I'm drunk)
8. I went from 136 lbs down to 118 lbs when shit was bad and now 125 lbs holding
This is my life at the moment...and I'm just happy as fuuuck to be alive as I'm not ready to go...however long I have to deal with this stuff, I'll take it.
I'm extremely lucky to have a beautiful family and small cell of friends for support, not to mention a great job that I just started back at last week...I've been so lucky they have treated me like family...
If you want to live, you'll do whatever it takes to make it happen...and I'll tell you one thing...I don't have time for anything but living and enjoying life..all the bullshit I used to stress about, it doesn't exist anymore..live life as if everyday could be the last!!
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