Sickman
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This might be a kind of touchy and personal subject that some people might not be comfortable talking about, but I was wondering if anyone else is in recovery?
I've been clean off opiates and heroin for almost 6 months and couldn't be happier. I have totally done a 180 with my life. I'm gainfully employed, live in a nice house, and most of all I'm taking care of my body by training/lifting 4 days a week. I've came so far in such a short time. I wake up every day feeling blessed to no longer be fighting a demon inside of me that want's to destroy everything positive in my life, then kill me.
It's been too many years with a lot of relapses. But this time around I feel different. I probably have to owe this renewed perspective to all the time I spend in the gym. This is the longest I've been clean in 7 years.
I know if I get high, then I can't lift. It kills all motivation and the motor skills needed to even physically do it. I'm getting stronger every workout. I've got momentum on my side. I don't want to throw it all away again and have to start from scratch. I'm finally back in somewhat decent shape. I plan on running with it and never looking back.
Best of all, my family trusts me again. Bridges I've burnt are being rebuilt. There's so much to live for. Im glad I finally decided to commit to this. Better late than never right?
I was just wondering if anyone can relate to me and what I'm going through. I had second thoughts about posting this out of fear of being judged, but figured screw it, everyone here seems respectful and mature.
One day at a time.
I've been clean off opiates and heroin for almost 6 months and couldn't be happier. I have totally done a 180 with my life. I'm gainfully employed, live in a nice house, and most of all I'm taking care of my body by training/lifting 4 days a week. I've came so far in such a short time. I wake up every day feeling blessed to no longer be fighting a demon inside of me that want's to destroy everything positive in my life, then kill me.
It's been too many years with a lot of relapses. But this time around I feel different. I probably have to owe this renewed perspective to all the time I spend in the gym. This is the longest I've been clean in 7 years.
I know if I get high, then I can't lift. It kills all motivation and the motor skills needed to even physically do it. I'm getting stronger every workout. I've got momentum on my side. I don't want to throw it all away again and have to start from scratch. I'm finally back in somewhat decent shape. I plan on running with it and never looking back.
Best of all, my family trusts me again. Bridges I've burnt are being rebuilt. There's so much to live for. Im glad I finally decided to commit to this. Better late than never right?
I was just wondering if anyone can relate to me and what I'm going through. I had second thoughts about posting this out of fear of being judged, but figured screw it, everyone here seems respectful and mature.
One day at a time.