Gabriel
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I made a hard choice today and I accept what comes with that decision.. Brothers it been my honor to get to know some of you..
To everyone.. thank you..the pain will corrupt my thoughts..and I want to be remembered as a person in his right mind.. I'm actually screaming as I type this..the meds changed me..I just wasn't myself..and I have far to much pride.. So I stopped them today.
As I write you guys.. I'm saddened..I have gotten to know a few of you well..I can't promise a return.. my demons are waiting..looks like C will not do me in..rather other medical problems will..
Finally,I have had a better than great life.and have no regrets.. Being in constant pain for to long distorts your thoughts..and I've just open the flood gates.. I'd rather have the pain and be me..than the sides and who I become..I will face this as me and if I have to say goodbye I will do it now..I will miss every freaking one of you..
Thanks to all..and Godspeed..
If any of you are forsaken like me.. I'll have a chair waiting for you by the Fire..OUT
To everyone.. thank you..the pain will corrupt my thoughts..and I want to be remembered as a person in his right mind.. I'm actually screaming as I type this..the meds changed me..I just wasn't myself..and I have far to much pride.. So I stopped them today.
As I write you guys.. I'm saddened..I have gotten to know a few of you well..I can't promise a return.. my demons are waiting..looks like C will not do me in..rather other medical problems will..
Finally,I have had a better than great life.and have no regrets.. Being in constant pain for to long distorts your thoughts..and I've just open the flood gates.. I'd rather have the pain and be me..than the sides and who I become..I will face this as me and if I have to say goodbye I will do it now..I will miss every freaking one of you..
Thanks to all..and Godspeed..
If any of you are forsaken like me.. I'll have a chair waiting for you by the Fire..OUT