Can i recover from this?

[Rickt]

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Seriously you read the entire book. This is my life. Stuffed already.

 

[Janoy Cresva]

Imagine doing all this when you're 19 and naturally full of piss and vinegar. Could never be me.

Gg

 

[Kraken]

I thank God there was no Internet when I was 19. I probably would have died.

 

[Big-paul]

This is why we discourage young men from using peds.

You may not have a choice about going on trt.

 

[In2Deep]

hello. thanks to anyone who takes the time to read this and respond. i'm 19 years old. this is overdue but i have been waiting as i am embarassed at my own stupidity two years ago (age 17) i made the mistake of taking liquid oral dianabol from a gym buddy. knowing nothing at all at the time about my hormonal system and that i was gonna shut myself down. i took it for 7 weeks. I'm guessing it was real because i gained 50 pounds on my bench press and gained a little water weight as well. long story short i (dont remember how i came to the conclusion that this is a good idea) decided i was gonna start TRT and just keep taking whatever i could get my hands on. so i started ordering test E from a source online and have been taking basically 100-200 mg every week or two while simultaneously randomly starting a small cycle of maybe 10-20mg of anavar a day for 4-8 weeks whenever i felt fit, probably only 3 cycles total. i dipped my toes into a little bit of NPP as well that was 6 months ago. all while having no idea what i was doing. making shitty gains as also. my best bench was 315x2 which i realize probably should have been a baseline before i even thought of going enhanced. my physique is mediocre and was probably acheivable naturally given i had just put in hard work and diet. i am 6' 1" and 190 lbs at 11 ish percent body fat. i have above average genetics but nowhere near elite for sure. which is what i am now hoping to do after i did some research and got nolvadex as a PCT. im on test cyp right now at 125mg every 6 days and i'm wondering if i should drop that and take this mixture of NPP and test P that i have as they have a shorter half life, then quit off of that then do my PCT off of that as i will only have a month of suffering as opposed to two or so. or should i say fuck it and stop everything now and then wait 5 half lives (40 days for test C which has a half life of 8 days seems to be the common census) and start nolvadex then. or 3, am i completely fucked. obviously there's not a for sure answer but just looking for a little advice here. i want to have a second chance and if i could i want to stay natural for the rest of my life. i've done a lot of maturing since that time 2 years ago. i have been really on track with my diet lately and i lift on a bro split 6 days a week religiously. i think i can give this a shot. yes i am a dumbass. i'll take the hits. i respect the community on here. there are some knowledgable guys on here so that's why i chose to make a post. thanks again

That little bit you messed with is not going fuck anything up. Pick up N2Generate and run one or two bottles of that. https://www.needtobuildmuscle.com/store/Cycle-Support-c26/hcgenerate-n2generate.html

I read a few bad comments about you taking Test at 19. Late 80s and early 90s that's what we had available for the average gym rat alone with some Dbol. Back then there was also a lot bunk gear too. True bath tub juice. Tren was no where close to being in the scene and we didnt have all these underground labs available. 1cc TestC alone was considered a cycle. Only recent years TRT became a thing as well as a big push by the industry as TRT clinics are popping up everywhere. Good Luck and I would just recommend planning your cycles and if you can't afford just buy a little here and there until you have a complete cycle ready to run. If someone was to run something for a longer duration maybe some EQ That wont really start kicking in until about week 4 or five so a person could front load with some anavar. Its pretty good cycle and sides are minimal

 

[In2Deep]

I thank God there was no Internet when I was 19. I probably would have died.

SAME