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I'm an occasional user of weed, used to be much more frequent years ago, but nowadays I really enjoy the clarity and energy and physical strength and healthy feeling of being sober. But I find when I am getting really overly stressed out about things in life and being extremely hard on myself, some edibles go a really long way in helping me let go and maintain a healthier mindset. Sometimes, the next day I feel like poop all day after an edible. Last night I was doing well, and I had the idea to eat an edible which was cool but now today I went to the gym and just had no drive, I really had to push myself to just do a mediocre workout. and I just feel guilty like, I'm fucking up my health and goals by doing this shit.
Obviously, if I dont like what it does, then I shouldnt do it. I know this isnt a sobriety forum or a mental health forum, but I just wanted to know if anyone older had any advice for me regarding this shit. Im 27, and its like, i end up feeling guilty like I'm hurting myself and regretting taking myself out of a mindset where i was doing really good, to get high for a night and then feel like shit the next day and have to go through basically a hangover to feel alright again.
Its weird because when i was younger, i didnt give a fuck about anything and i used alot of hard drugs and pills, and then i put that all behind me and got serious about clean diet, lifting, and discipline in general. But one thing i struggle with is letting go, i have trouble letting myself just be myself, now i care about everything so much that i dont let myself live (as you can see). And i find weed helps me to let go, even after the fact.. but now that i truly appreciate who i am and feel a sense of self worth, I feel like im just shitting all over that by even taking a 20mg weed edible which in the grand scheme of things isnt that big of a deal, I dont drink, I dont use any other drugs and I eat very clean, try to avoid all chemicals as possible.
The core of what I'm saying is basically I have an irrational fear that if I fuck up in any little way, that I'm throwing everything away such as my physique, looks, mental health, gym progress and strength, etc. And yes, I recognize that it is irrational and kind of neurotic and crazy and I hate that.
Obviously, if I dont like what it does, then I shouldnt do it. I know this isnt a sobriety forum or a mental health forum, but I just wanted to know if anyone older had any advice for me regarding this shit. Im 27, and its like, i end up feeling guilty like I'm hurting myself and regretting taking myself out of a mindset where i was doing really good, to get high for a night and then feel like shit the next day and have to go through basically a hangover to feel alright again.
Its weird because when i was younger, i didnt give a fuck about anything and i used alot of hard drugs and pills, and then i put that all behind me and got serious about clean diet, lifting, and discipline in general. But one thing i struggle with is letting go, i have trouble letting myself just be myself, now i care about everything so much that i dont let myself live (as you can see). And i find weed helps me to let go, even after the fact.. but now that i truly appreciate who i am and feel a sense of self worth, I feel like im just shitting all over that by even taking a 20mg weed edible which in the grand scheme of things isnt that big of a deal, I dont drink, I dont use any other drugs and I eat very clean, try to avoid all chemicals as possible.
The core of what I'm saying is basically I have an irrational fear that if I fuck up in any little way, that I'm throwing everything away such as my physique, looks, mental health, gym progress and strength, etc. And yes, I recognize that it is irrational and kind of neurotic and crazy and I hate that.