TeddyBear
Tren Made Me Gay
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I’m 29, and I’ve been pretty sheltered and chaste my whole life.
Some of it was 90’s church sex-scare tactics; but also legitimately me deciding as an adult to wait on sex until marriage.
It wasn’t until my 20s that I began pursuing women in relationships and found that I really struggled with physical intimacy. I didn’t realize that I while I have solid relationships with my family and friends, I’m really adverse to touch. Not big on hugs or shoulder pats, etc.
With dates I would put off making moves because I wasn’t comfortable and I got nervous. Those relationships fizzled out as a result.
My current relationship has blossomed because she is experienced and very into physical touch, but she waited for me to be comfortable without pushing me away. Our first kiss, was my move, I came down with a stress crash/flu the day afterward because I was so anxious about it and then relieved afterward.
We have since progressed a lot. I feel comfortable demonstrating my affection and stuff. Friends and family have noticed and commented that I’m much more warm and affectionate to others now as I let that guard down.
Now engaged, my fiancée and I continue to progress physically at what most would consider a snails pace. But it has worked for us. She has had experiences with men who wanted only sex, so she’s glad that hasn’t been my goal.
Last night we took a big step. I stripped down at her urging and she gave me my first blow job.
This may seem minor to you, but monumental in a few ways for me. It was my first time being nude in front of a woman; my first time being touched, and first time being sucked.
I had sky-high expectations. I wanted to perform.
i stayed hard.
then we were both disappointed because I didn’t cum. We tried and tried. I tried manually. I couldn’t cum.
We were dissappointed.
But I’m really dissappointed. My first time feels like a huge let down, after all that pressure.
I need to share, I told a buddy who’s married and he told me I was overthinking it.
My fiancée and I have been texting back and forth all day. We were both nervous and disappointed but will try again soon. She felt more vulnerable than I had assumed, even though she has some experience.
Some of it was 90’s church sex-scare tactics; but also legitimately me deciding as an adult to wait on sex until marriage.
It wasn’t until my 20s that I began pursuing women in relationships and found that I really struggled with physical intimacy. I didn’t realize that I while I have solid relationships with my family and friends, I’m really adverse to touch. Not big on hugs or shoulder pats, etc.
With dates I would put off making moves because I wasn’t comfortable and I got nervous. Those relationships fizzled out as a result.
My current relationship has blossomed because she is experienced and very into physical touch, but she waited for me to be comfortable without pushing me away. Our first kiss, was my move, I came down with a stress crash/flu the day afterward because I was so anxious about it and then relieved afterward.
We have since progressed a lot. I feel comfortable demonstrating my affection and stuff. Friends and family have noticed and commented that I’m much more warm and affectionate to others now as I let that guard down.
Now engaged, my fiancée and I continue to progress physically at what most would consider a snails pace. But it has worked for us. She has had experiences with men who wanted only sex, so she’s glad that hasn’t been my goal.
Last night we took a big step. I stripped down at her urging and she gave me my first blow job.
This may seem minor to you, but monumental in a few ways for me. It was my first time being nude in front of a woman; my first time being touched, and first time being sucked.
I had sky-high expectations. I wanted to perform.
i stayed hard.
then we were both disappointed because I didn’t cum. We tried and tried. I tried manually. I couldn’t cum.
We were dissappointed.
But I’m really dissappointed. My first time feels like a huge let down, after all that pressure.
I need to share, I told a buddy who’s married and he told me I was overthinking it.
My fiancée and I have been texting back and forth all day. We were both nervous and disappointed but will try again soon. She felt more vulnerable than I had assumed, even though she has some experience.
