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I'm debating when to take my periodic hiatus from UG (ergo I've barely posted), and it appeared this week was when I leave. However, Trump inspired me to create this thread. Plus, I miss the controversy and pandemonium my threads create.
I am a Christian. You all have seen my daily failure in being the Christian I should be. What angers me the most with failing is:
Jesus gave us only two rules to follow: "'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment...‘Love your neighbor as yourself'. There is no commandment greater than these.”
To fail obedience to only two rules is ridiculous to me. Yes, I am a perfectionist and hold myself to irrationally high standards (perfectionism and ridiculously high standards forces me to use 100% of my potential). Of course, I do realize the greatest commandment and the second law are actually monumental tasks due to our human nature.
The factor that angers me is, well, my anger. I am conditioned to use anger and hate for strength, motivation, and perseverance. Do you believe I can even call myself a Christian? I began trying my hardest to learn how to live without using hate and anger.
A month ago I forgave my parents for betrayal. Tuesday going for a PR, I stopped myself from using my memories to generate hate, thus gaining strength. I instead used faith in God to bring me a PR. I succeeded and hit a new PR!
Yet, I'm worried I don't deserve to call myself a Christian. 1 John 4:8 states "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love." I feel I haven't earned being able to say I'm a Christian until I erase all hate from me. It sucks. I want to be good enough for God, and be good enough for testifying, using my life to show the greatness and love of God.
Do you also fail to follow the 2 commandments? What is your biggest obstacle in obeying the 2 commandments?
Can you please give me advice for removing my hate and anger? What would you replace hate and anger with as a fuel for motivation, perseverance, and strength?
Thanks to all those who reply and participate. Big thanks to those who help me, too.
I am a Christian. You all have seen my daily failure in being the Christian I should be. What angers me the most with failing is:
Jesus gave us only two rules to follow: "'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment...‘Love your neighbor as yourself'. There is no commandment greater than these.”
To fail obedience to only two rules is ridiculous to me. Yes, I am a perfectionist and hold myself to irrationally high standards (perfectionism and ridiculously high standards forces me to use 100% of my potential). Of course, I do realize the greatest commandment and the second law are actually monumental tasks due to our human nature.
The factor that angers me is, well, my anger. I am conditioned to use anger and hate for strength, motivation, and perseverance. Do you believe I can even call myself a Christian? I began trying my hardest to learn how to live without using hate and anger.
A month ago I forgave my parents for betrayal. Tuesday going for a PR, I stopped myself from using my memories to generate hate, thus gaining strength. I instead used faith in God to bring me a PR. I succeeded and hit a new PR!
Yet, I'm worried I don't deserve to call myself a Christian. 1 John 4:8 states "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love." I feel I haven't earned being able to say I'm a Christian until I erase all hate from me. It sucks. I want to be good enough for God, and be good enough for testifying, using my life to show the greatness and love of God.
Do you also fail to follow the 2 commandments? What is your biggest obstacle in obeying the 2 commandments?
Can you please give me advice for removing my hate and anger? What would you replace hate and anger with as a fuel for motivation, perseverance, and strength?
Thanks to all those who reply and participate. Big thanks to those who help me, too.